Interests:primary: following Jesus. all else: eating, driving, guitar, playing video games, chatting, corny cheesy lame jokes, sleeping, singing, watching movies, reading, trying to try random things Expertise:checking email, eating, being me (sometimes) Occupation:Engineering Industry:Media
so... how have you been? it's been like forever. how come you don't come around as much any more? well... sorry about that. things have come up, but i'm here now! that's fine, i'll always be here, and as always am glad to see you. =)
I guess this conversation could be between two long time friends. Or maybe even between someone and God. Or me and my oft-neglected xanga.
I'm trying to figure out what has kept me from blogging. It's a number of things. Part of it is that, I don't know what to write anymore. Sometimes it feels like it's too personal to put onto the internet what's really going on. I've either grown more paranoid or becoming more aware of what I put into the public space. Priorities are different than what they were years ago when I started this, both in the public's blogging engine of preference as well as for my time. I think that the tough part is that when writing falls of the radar, it just falls, and you don't hear a thud. If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around, does anyone hear it? If a blog/facebook/twitter/feed/etc. goes silent, a midst the media-saturated internet, it's hard to notice, unless you're looking for it.
I guess I did find something to write about. Hopefully more to come.
i was told that in life there are givers and there are takers. yet someone else says we're all a blend of the two, which turns my black and white world into shades of gray...
but at the heart of it, if we're honest with ourselves, we're takers. we can only take what is given to us. and ultimately God gives us much more than we deserve. He is the sole Giver. we can definitely emulate Him and sacrificially give, but left alone to our own devices we won't give, at least not with the right intent.
To all of you out there who are having a questionable day... And to those who woke up and saw the overcast foggy day... And to the folks who just feel blah inside, yet may have a smile on their face... And to those who just have another otherwise regular day...
There is hope. There is more than this. There's more than just what may be getting you down.
The song says "You are fairer still today". Even in the midst of troubles and strife, God doesn't change. Though our feelings and situations may be all over the place, Jesus is firm ground that we can stand and put and build our faith upon.
May your Fridays and weekends be filled with joy. =)
wonders when to call it quits on xanga. it's not like i blog much elsewhere, and the trend seem to be towards other social media. my xanga is 8 years old. dah. how did that happen? so many possible things to write about. but is it really for a public venue? ultimately up to me. o the decision to do anything, nothing, or close. deep thoughts to ponder over lunch.
